On journaling
- juin 06, 2019
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The other
day, I saw something that really annoyed me. This person was just mocking the
whole process of having a personal diary, as if it was only a childish thing
that we did when we were young. I was really angry because I felt personally offended
as I always had a journal. Of course, this person surely did not mean any arm
and definitely did not attack me, but still. I was pissed by this stupid
reflection.
Journaling
is becoming trendy now, and I think it’s cool. Especially for people like me
who have always had a notebook, but were not confident enough to share the fact
that they owned it. It was like reading back then, a really uncool thing to do
(ah!). But now, people can share everything they want about their way of
journaling. And I’m going to talk about mine today.
When I talk
about journaling, for me, it simply means writing my thoughts on a journal.
Nothing too crazy, I like to keep it simple. I experimented a lot, but now I
found something that suits me well: a lined notebook where I write a page
entirely whenever I want, mostly once a day. I don’t use many pens or draw
inside (I can’t draw), I just write. I tried to be a more creative with other
notebook, but I’m just really bad at it and the result never satisfied me. Now,
having straight lines and everything pleasing for the eye is way easier for me.
And the reason I write one entire page every time (despite for the aesthetic)
is to force myself to go deeper in my thoughts, to write everything I have in
mind, especially the things that bothered me or make me anxious. One page is
enough, and I always feel a bit lighter when I close the notebook. Before this
one, I had a dotted one with too much space and I ended up writing small amount
of things every other day without being really deep. Therefore, it did not help
me in any way. Because, this is the thing, it has to be therapeutic for me. I don’t
write things down just for me to remember them, I write them down to feel
better, to actually put words on how I feel. Sometimes, you have something in
mind, but it’s only when you write it down that you can really put your finger on it
and work on it.
I have been
journaling, or keeping a diary (whatever you call it), since forever, really. My first
journal had puppies on the cover with green pages and a key to open it. I loved
it as it was a safe space for me, something private where I could write what I
wanted (mostly who I was in love that day, the joy of being 8). Then, I kept
asking my mom for new ones when I finished it. Until today. I kept most of
them, mostly to remember where I’m from, what I’ve been through and to keep
memories.
The whole
process of journaling is so positive for me. Sometimes I can be quite scared to
write down what’s wrong, but in the end, I know I will feel better after doing
so. I understand the power of words on yourself, the power that your thoughts
can have regarding self-reflection. And knowing all of that was probably why I
was angry when hearing this person mocking journaling. Actually, this person did
not know what they was talking about because journaling is something personal,
private, intimate that you create. It gives you the opportunity to be free,
creative, to put memories inside, to write about the good and the bad. It’s a
personal space where you can feel safe. And it has been a great journey for me.
Do you keep a notebook with your thoughts? Or do you have something really personal and creative that makes you feel better ?
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